Day 106…had my 1st sober vacation!

My husband and I took a long weekend to Vancouver this past week and it was my first sober vacation…in about 20 years!!!  We had a wonderful time and it was absolutely beautiful.  I couldn’t believe all the huge trees in the forests we walked through, the gorgeous ocean waters along the seawall surrounding Stanley…

3 Months Sober…my rock says “Believe”.

My rock says “Believe”.  Where I went to treatment, when you complete your stay there is a type of ceremony…a Stone Out.  This monumental moment is where everyone shares a bit about YOU…how you’ve grown, what they hope for you in sobriety, their faith in you, words of encouragement, etc…and you are given a rock…

Day 91. Learning to love life!

It’s day 91 for me. My 43rd birthday is tomorrow and today I am feeling really proud of myself. I am finally living life…only took 43 years, but hey, who’s counting right?!!! I was thinking back on all the years of my drinking, my marriage, my kids, my life in general. To be honest (and…

Day 85. Grateful for my husband.

This morning while lying in bed, my husband sweetly asked me how I was doing (this, of course, was in regards to my well being now that I am not drinking). He has become compassionate and caring in a way that I haven’t seen in a LONG time! As you might know from my earlier…

Day 83…learning to let go.

Still going and feeling more grateful every day. I was at an AA meeting this week (I’m not a huge fan of AA, but found a group I really like)…never judge before you really dig deep and get all the information to make that judgement! I realized that I had to surrender my attachment to…

2018…A New Year of hope and joy!

Well, it’s officially 2018 and I was sober for the 1st time on New Year’s Eve in about 25 years!!! If you haven’t quit drinking quite yet, and it is your New Year’s Resolution…you CAN DO THIS! For me, it ultimately took Rehab. A lot of people (including myself) are resistant to Rehab thinking it’s…

The journey to here. 78 Days sober.

So, there are a LOT of tools and resources to help us get sober and I, for one, really needed (and still need) all I could take in. And it took A LOT OF TIME TO GET. Some worked, some didn’t, and some just didn’t happen at the right time but you never know what…

Day 76…what it took to get here.

Today is day 76 of sobriety for me! I have struggled for YEARS to get where I am today, but I am here. It took a lot of “Rock Bottoms”…I kept asking myself how many bottoms will I have to have before this clicks? What is wrong with me??? Why can’t I just stop when…

70 Days Sober today!!!

Hi all! I have been MIA for quite some time now. I was losing hope, feeling like I would always be a failure at this, and not sure of the way out. I couldn’t even get a glimpse of sobriety for SO long! This will be my 1st sober Christmas in over 25 years!!! Actually,…

Okay, planning for sobriety.

So, I am going to try again. Truly try. I have signed up for Annie Grace’s Alcohol Experiment and am starting on September 8th, this Friday. I have listened to a few of the videos she has put out and think I am in a different place than I have been before. This has been…

Last attempt.

So tomorrow will be another Day 1. That illusive, magical, depressing day 1. One that I have had a million times and one that I don’t want to ever have again. I am lost. I am afraid. I really don’t know if I can do this. I am going to try. My husband is indifferent…

Mother’s Day.

So tonight isn’t about drinking or not drinking…just how I feel. It’s Mother’s Day. I am so incredibly lucky to have 2 amazing, smart, compassionate and caring boys who love me with all their hearts. They are my everything and the fact that they love me despite my flaws is priceless. I always will strive…