So tonight I drank again….I think I knew I would as there was wine in the fridge and I couldn’t bring myself to pour it out….hello….sign number 1! We had a soccer game tonight, district Championship game and I knew we would go out afterwards for dinner and there is always wine at dinner out. I have failed miserably. Tomorrow, if I can’t make it, I give up. Tomorrow if I do make it I will be AF for 30 days when my youngest graduates from high school. I DESPERATELY NEED THIS….this blog is for me, to be accountable and honest. what else is there. tomorrow will suck and be fabulous at the same time. I’ve had an emotional night without anyone knowing…not sure how to talk to anyone anymore…. Best to all those still trying and hopefully tomorrow will be the last of day 1’s that i have for quite awhile…..at least 30 days.
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I’ve just come across your blog. Everything you say strikes a cord with me! I’m also a working mum with two sons drinking 1 to 2 bottles of wine and night. Every morning I am determined not to drink but the wine witch starts talking to me at 4pm and she is so persuasive ! So I’ve had a lot of day 1’s too! Today is my day 2. Let’s do this together xx
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Oh I know the merry go round of “I am not going to drink today” first thing in the morning and then by 4-5:00, it seems like such a good idea again! This time I hope it’s different…I don’t like forgetting the nights and waking up hating myself! I will do this with you! Keep in touch and let me know what tools are working for you. Hugs. Cleo
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It is so crazy how quickly our minds turn. That spiral of mental distress was so hard.
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Hi, was wondering if you have read any other books apart from Jason Vale? I often find it helpful to read them in an evening to keep me inspired, I am on day 10 today, have lots of good interesting book suggestions if you’re interested? Stick with it, something will click at some point 🙂
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Any and all book recommendations are welcome! I read one called Alcohol Lied to Me and need to read it again! Well done on 10 days…hoping I will get there too soon!
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I love Glass Half Full by Lucy Rocca, Blackout by Sarah Hepola, Sober is the New Black by Rachel Black, and I loved Ice and a slice 1 +2 by Della Gallon, all good reads, some funny too!
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Daisy, thank you for those…I haven’t read any of them and am going by the bookstore tomorrow to pick up a few (or all) of them 🙂
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Keep trying. Annie x
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Oh, Annie I will keep trying! A new day one today….30 days is my goal for now. In 30 days my son graduated high school so how wonderful would it be to have a 100% sober me during this time? I really think I can make it this time. Thank you for the encouragement!
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Clear the alcohol out of the house. If it is there, you will drink it. That is addiction. Willpower means nothing. It is just a way to beat ourselves up.
Plan for success.
Get help. Go to AA tonight. Listen. Read the big book. It is enlightening.
Call a therapist. Get support.
You can do this. Life can be so much easier and more enjoyable.
Anne
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I’ve called a therapist I used to see whom I loved. She was very understanding of this addiction and was ready to help…I just wasn’t ready, but I am now. I have to learn to deal with life and I think that is a lot of it! Thank you for the advice….and support (because this IS support for me)!!!!
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