So I have barely made it through the evening, but I have made it through sober. Honestly, I wouldn’t have made it if it wasn’t for my oldest son (and biggest supporter) being home tonight. I am sober for him, not me tonight.
My youngest is off with friends and my husband has gone out as well. I don’t know what the point of this is right now and don’t even know if I will ever be truly happy with life. I can’t seem to find a balance between work, family, and being sober and feel that the sober part is getting the least amount of time yet needs the most. Not to be depressing, but I am just feeling down, worn out, and tired of everything being so darn hard in life. Tomorrow is another day, and I’ll go from there…..
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Big hug, Day 3 on the horizon!!!!
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I never believed in happiness until I was well into sobriety.
Booze dulls life. Sad, but true.
Give yourself a chance to heal. You might be surprised.
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Yep. Tomorrow is another day and I really hope you wake feeling good that you had a sober night. Use any support you can from your sons or anyone else. You deserve to be happy, but drinking does not and will not make you happy. Big hugs my friend!
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Yes….waking up sober is definitely worth the struggle of the evening and I’ve made it to day 3 again 🙂
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You will have shit days and good days, that’s what life is. Read Good Choices comment on Annie’s blog yesterday, it’s everything I want to say but she? puts it so well xx
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Virtual hugs from sunny London. I liked good choices post too. Is there a possibility of losing yourself in a project? DIY/fundraiser/new hobby/trip planning? It sounds like you need a distraction to cheer you up and keep you focused. xxx
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I’ve just caught up on your blog. Day 2/3 is hard. You will be feeling down but you know, it will get better. As ainsoriety said its your body healing. Be sad, shout and scream, write your bog or just go to bed. Do anything you want but don’t drink. We are all here for you xxxxx
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Thank you! On day 3 and trudging on…so glad I made it past day 2 and today is a new (sober) day :). Hugs!
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