Wishing for a final day 1…struggling.

Posting for accountability. May tomorrow be day 1. Why is it that our sick minds want us to drink when we know that it makes us unhappy, makes us forget things, makes us lack compassion for others, makes us isolate? If I was to describe drinking for me it would be this: Numbing Blacking out…

Failed again….

So another day 1 is done. Feeling sad, a bit lost, losing hope, yet not giving up quite yet. Time to throw the book at it I suppose. I am going to go back and re-do Hip Sobriety School that I rushed through this past Fall and got extremely complacent and didn’t do it properly….

Day 19. Feeling blah.

It’s day 19 and just not feeling great right now. I’ve been out to dinner a couple of times with my family and am now fixated on those who are drinking….I just don’t get how people have just one or how prevalent alcohol is wherever we go. I still just wish I could be “normal”…

Being Present. Day 16.

It is day 16 and I have had the day off from work, have cleaned house, decluttered, disposed of random unnecessary “things” and feeling at peace today. Last night was hard and I think I drank at least four sodas and ate like the world was ending, but stayed sober and was proud of it!…