So, day 3. Why is living without a depressant (alcohol) scary? Why do we feel our lives deserve better? Some do deserve better, I truly believe that. I think some people really get a bad deck of cards and really deserve SO much better. Not me. I grew up in a middle class family (who drank a lot). I was adopted, so I have that abandonment feeling that came back when my biological family found me then it was too hard for them to know me so they disappeared again….but that is nothing compared to trauma that sexual assault victims, homeless people, hard core drug addicts that have lost everything….I am so very lucky and why can’t I just appreciate that? I’m trying. I have a family…a husband that is still here. Two AMAZING boys (grown men, 21 and 18) who are fabulously smart, funny, gorgeous and love me unconditionally. I am the lucky one. I may not deserve it, but I am going to really start to acknowledge and appreciate it more. I will focus on the now, what I can control and not what I can’t. Thank you all for just being….you are each amazing!!!