Hi all! I have been MIA for quite some time now. I was losing hope, feeling like I would always be a failure at this, and not sure of the way out. I couldn’t even get a glimpse of sobriety for SO long! This will be my 1st sober Christmas in over 25 years!!! Actually, that is really sad but at the same time I am super grateful.
1. I won’t forget to wrap presents or where I hid them.
2. I won’t forget Christmas Eve in it’s entirety…
3. I won’t wake up Christmas morning feeling like shit and wishing I didn’t have to get up to celebrate.
4. I am fully prepared with all the gifts, stocking stuffers, and such that I don’t have to question.
5. I did not buy excessively for my boys due to guilt and shame over my behavior.
6. I will wake up refreshed, excited to spend the day with my family, and grateful to be alive.
7. I will be 100% present and spend Christmas eve having quality time baking and decorating cookies without obsessing about how much wine I can have.
8. I will not be panicked at Christmas dinner worrying if there is enough wine for me…secretly monitoring all the bottles?
9. I won’t be wishing for the day to just be over, counting the minutes until I can drink again (5:00 typically, but always started early on holidays).
10. I am healthier than I’ve ever been, happier than I could ever imagine, and grateful to have the chance to be who I’ve always wanted to be!!!
Merry Christmas (or Happy Holidays) to all! If I can do this….ANYONE can!!!
I will post how I’ve managed 70 days soon after the holiday, but know there is always hope and always love and support from me…no mater where you are in this journey!
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Dear Christy, congratulations on 70 days. I wonderd how you’ve been doing, you said you were doing the 30 day experiment with Annie Grace and we never heard from you again. The post where you wrote a letter to your husband really touched me. I’m not sober but hope to get there in the New Year. Would love to hear how you’ve done it, Happy Christmas and so well,done xxx
Angie, hi there! Thank you so much! The 30 day experiment didn’t work for me…I kept putting it off or getting distracted by other things, which has been on par for me concerning the whole getting sober thing! It took getting completely desperate for me…waking up in a hotel room facing a half drunk glass of wine not knowing how I got there, knowing my marriage wasn’t going to last much longer, and hope for something better…which I have found in sobriety! You will get to a place where you just KNOW that you can’t/don’t want to drink anymore, and then it will all click. It took a LOT of time for me, but it happened and I promise you that it is possible!!! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas and know that you are worth it!!! Enjoy your holiday and here is to sober in the New Year for you!!! Huge hugs and thank you so much for your support!!!
Oops it’s Angie xx
Awesome news, great job on 70 days and Merry Christmas to you!!
Thank you SO much!!! It has certainly been a journey (and not a short one)!!! Merry Christmas to you too!
70 days is awesome.
A sober Christmas is a beautiful thing. All those things on your list were so familiar to me.
Chill some sparking water and enjoy it. Have a toast to a sober and beautiful Christmas.
I look forward to hearing more. And I am always around if you need support!
Anne, thank you!!! Means SO much coming from you as I have been following your amazing journey for awhile now 🙂 . I am really looking forward to this sober Christmas….I will have a toast to all those with me and all those still struggling (with Sparkling Grape juice, of course)! Also looking forward to not going back and following your example of living life to the fullest! Hugs 🙂
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Yay!! I am very happy you are having a good Christmas!
It’s my third one, and the best yet!
It’s hope from people that help other people get and stay sober!
Keep shining and spreading the message!!
Thank you so much and you are an inspiration to us all! So right in giving hope and I hope to be able to do that as well as you have here!
I am so happy to see you are 70 days sober. It gives me hope and inspiration. Would love to hear the whole story. Also Angie— is that you from your blog mommy was a closet drinker? I think of you all the time and wonder how you are.
Thank you!!! I am definitely going to share as it was a great experience and got me to where I am today…76 days sober today 🙂 . You can do this! If I can…ANYONE can!!!! Hugs 🙂